~Apparition~

happiness is
just a
series of
choices it
doesn't just
happen I was
an apparition
it's not
who I
am what's
really wrong
with starting over?

tangerine instead
of orange
for a clean
slate I
like
how they
use the word
friendship it's
the cornerstone
of everything

my grandmother
preferred marigolds
for marigolds
for remembrance

do you
think you'll
find love? I
don't know
if she likes
pancakes, then yes
the innocent
before the
plunging chasm

~Sarah Mhaina Calvello

~Sin~

shaping the
ivory light
moving in
the evening
the dairy
murmur we
are here
thank god
for sunsets

I never
said thank
you for
that I never
got a chance

I thought
I would
always get
one more
chance now
it's
just another
necessary regret
that couldn't be
changed couldn't
be glossed
over

these old
roses are
still velvet
soft again
against my
skin
you said
I lived a
life of
sin

blue could
fill this
gray cold
stillness of
a blank
sky curves
with the
stars

terrified of
these four
walls show
me
what's right
and wrong
what's hidden
in this
layered dust

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Executioner~

crying when
there's nobody
around in
quiet moments
that still
are mine

I just
can't shake
the time
we met
alone you
telling me
the executioners
face is always
well-hidden
after all,
you taught
me to
hate and 
love

sides of
a confused
coin dark
necessities the
darkness help
me to
figure out
where the
shine can be

what was
supposed to
be dropped
too fast
fraying of
a picture
that couldn't
last

smiles like
sunshine and
secrets I
miss that
I miss
the light

there is
a sick
feeling in
my stomach
when I'm
supposed to
grieve when
the time
is expected
to be sweet

not knowing
what to
feel I'll
meet the
day the
day blind
as long
as I'm
with you
it should
be better

 maybe if
I fool myself
it will
get better

a  bittersweet
restless dream
that can
split the
night

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Cocoa

it's cold
but warm
icy mist
is comforting
and blue even the
air shivers

I hand
you sugar plum
jam and
dates with
a sardonic
chuckle don't
trying to
hide to
disguise

Cocoa, medium
chocolate dog
puts his
puts his
on me
sniffs and
kisses me
I can
feel the
nudes and
air moving
around me

my neighbor
tells me he
is welcoming
me in
the icy sun

I forget the
word but
it felt beautiful

my senses
woke up
like he
could sense
my feelings
and was
trying to
erase them
make them
better

I turned
around with
a new kind
of warm
smile wrapping
around well,
baby I
needed that
my lights
turned back
on
~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Perspective~

stop waiting
appreciate
the mess
straight from
inside that
vibrates inside
my bones

if your
now isn't
good enough
then your
there won't
be good
enough either

were like
two messed up
peas in
the same
pod scared
to dream
but not
anymore
try again
might be
a better
day waiting

so beautiful
so tragic
nothing else
can compare
the only
thing
I can
control is
my perspective

I'm tired
of wading
through smoky
tears time
to see differently
even though
I wish it
all had been
just a
little more
clear the
present shouldn't
be shadowed

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Hot Cocoa~

a colder
version
of thinner air
circles of
blue mist

stars in
bewildering sky
staring from
far away
in twilight

rising moon
swirling circle
of birds

a laced
pillow quietly
smelling of
lavender

the smell
of wild bird
oh these little moments
that's what
it's all about

hot cocoa
and small
smiles spreading
what's a
celebration without
something hot?

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Scattered~

ticking clocks
slamming doors
I'm tired
of trying
to fit
somewhere where
I don't
belong this
problem is
too heavy
for me
to push

clutching at
these scattered dreams
trying to
hold onto
the laughter
am I
really done
cringing at
what might
be said?

double-edged words
veiled threats
that darken
cluttered hallways

letting go
of something before
it breaks
or before
it breaks
you
is one
of the
hardest thing's
to do

great word
bittersweet
sad it's gone
but now no
worries about
being attacked
your words
were always
the sharpest

you said
you liked
me better
when I
was fat

now the
mirror is
broken
my reflection
belongs to
me

no one
is perfect
were all
cracked but
it's the
cracks that
let the
light through

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Necessary~

you don't
want to
be tired
on your
way to
somewhere trust
me

like an
anchor like a
dream I
feel stranded
in suspension
has has
made a
chaotic mess
out of me

it's a
beautiful relief
of clarity
I sleep
weaving in
and out
of focus

in a
sweet edge
of a
tragedy
I tried
ti change
I did

just breathe
it's not
nearly as
bad as I think

life is
full of
necessary regrets
you have
to skirt
past

say what
needs to
be said
then was
it away
I won't be
another band aid
idea can't mask
doesn't help
anything

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Scars~

just because
nobody hit
you doesn't
mean you
don't have
scars

show up
because I'm
here let's
just call
a spade
a spade

warm nights
white winter
jasmine climbs
towards the
tear of the moon

my mind
makes a
restless pillow
coffee can't
even quiet
my thoughts

I am
an unusual
effect that's
why we
get along
so well

I lower
my music
to hear
the rain
the lulling,
broken chimes

how quickly
we go
from you
can be
anything to
real reality

but I
still have
a different
way of
seeing stars

let it
go fall
with the
rain outside
time will
make it
all right
we'll get
it back
to good
again

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~The Neighbor~

"Her lawn looks like a meadow,
And if she mows the place
She leaves the clover standing
And all the Queen Anne's lace!"-Portrait of a Neighbor, Edna St. Vincent Millay

for Micheala

when I
think of
you I
think of
Queen Anne's Lace
quiet things
and you
garden
slow blooming
warm nights
filled with
coffee smiles

you sent
me a
card when
I needed it
how did
you know
I was
crying?

you sent me
Portrait of a Neighbor
by Edna St. Vincent Milllay
it did
make me smile

everyday another
door opens
terrifying wonderful
rose take
me home

live in-between
the highs
and lows
footsteps fall
on a
path well-worn

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Glow~

ethereal flower
rain falls
on lips

memories pour
fourth like
sweets from
a jar

plans brake
shatter on
the ground
a echo
of what used
to be

violets in
oceans of
bloom open
up my hands
all I
want is
to escape
this desperate
scene to
hold onto
my dreams
along the
way

don't back
down don't
shy away
I've seen
my fair
share of
ups and
downs

turned around
glow elsewhere
I pick
the shine
over shadow

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sky~

living between
the hours it's just a
blank space

grasping at
whatever available
the sky is
not the
limit
you say
your mind is

the turquoise
marble rolls
down my
calm road
dreams are
made up of
real thing's

a perfect
combination the
stars give
of fire
fruit and wine
brings new
thing's

places, pieces
broken glass
mismatched shoes
creating memories
leaving behind
what hurts

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Cookie~

How are
you doing, honey?
I'm always
perpetually a
cookie away
from good

out of
n between
darkened doorways
and windows
the space
of a
breath of
nothing
where the
light goes
to hide

the starlight
is born
from it
shining and
crystalline

it's like
the fog
has lifted
from my
eyes I
can face
the day
myself

where I'm
meant to
go my
footsteps
are a loud
proud echo

the world
has shifted
on me
this soulful flower
in my
garden can't
be an
illusion

I want
it to be
heard and
seen not
just a
fantasy the
gravity
is just

we can
touch
for now
we live
with what
we miss

everything seems
to be in
place you're
worth
waiting
in traffic
for

~Sarah Mahina Calverllo

~Turns~

isn't it
funny what
you remember?

distracted  by
the in between
moments it
is all
fractured noise

the one
is an
idiot that
still loves
you, relax,
I'm just musing

I'm looking
for you
before I
started looking
you asked me
with wide eyes
just two buttons
until I did
before I left

but I
realize we
can't hold
onto our
ghosts no more

walking these
hallways looking
for any
faint answer

I had
my head
down but
now it's up
I don't
want that
glow to fade
away to
my black

but sometimes
you have
to let
thing's happen
in their
own time
in their
own way

let go
of that 
tight grip
let the
do it's
turns

there is
nothing too
clear in
this world,
is there?

icy blue
electric small
storms it's
good to
cry it
washes the
soul

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Subtle~

I found
that toast
and venting
makes me
feel better

well, that
was interesting
ashes to
ashes, right?
living isn't
about tasks
it's about
living

I think
I'm going to
stop controlling
every moment
because the best ones
sneak up
on you

time falls
back on
me but
I can't
give in
to yesterday
memories
don't die

I promised
I would never leave
and you slowly
melted into
beautiful ice
I long for
the subtle
moments in between

you told
me stories
don't change minds
but stories
are the
only things
that really do

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sati~

you smiled
your slanted grin
and gave
me the
Egyptian nickname
of Sati,
pointing at
the bow
and arrow
with
mischief in
your blue
eyes

I didn't
understand, I
didn't want
to stand
for war

but now
I know
you knew
I would
be strong
even when
I didn't
think I'd
be, you
wanted
me to
be protected

it's a
thought you
hoped I'd see
my life
is all
about little
victories scarecrows
dressed in
the latest styles
frozen smiles
velvet bodies of
beautiful chaos

patiently
waiting
but time
is moving
slow, surrounded
noise blends

images are
playing like
reflections in
my mind
I think it's
going to
rain now
I can sleep
try to
build a
better life

fall away
fall away
now you
can stay

I love
the sound
of rain
the broken
glass music
the only
sstring
out of
tune

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Selkie~

it's like
you came to
me from an
apartment of
the sea

you stare
blank, watery
eyes that
think so
fast yet
you tell
me it's nothing

are we
meant to
be? I'm
not sure
anymore
near to
me but
so far
away

unusual dignity
beautiful upturned
face everything
coveted is
a little
cracked

the skies
watercolor layers
bold, bright
breathing
turning black
and constant

untamed like
the waves
of the
hidden night


~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Pomegranate~

how do
I look? like
a marshmallow
going to
war, is
that a
good thing?
well, depends on
how much
you like
marshmallows

it doesn't matter
if you stray
as long
as you
come back

bruises along
the way
become delicate
velvet soft
things colors
crystal spiderwebs
Persephone took
her bite
of the pomegranate
shimmering ruby
spills out
to the ground

keep on
trucking, something
good might
happen
cradling memories

don't dance
if you don't know
the steps
hearts are
beating
like
a pendulum
swinging in
the air

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Fishing~

fear and
love cannot
live in
the same
house

unusual dignity
always missing
what I
shouldn't be
missing, trying
to find
a way
to make
another day
go by

the can
is already
open, the
worms are
already out
might as
well go
fishing

soft and
not knowing
the day
is perfect
like that

I carry
the heavy
weight of
my mistakes
and my
victories behind
my eyes

I'm spinning
around in
circles but
I feel
like I'm
standing on
the edge
of a
cliff, but
I've never
been safer
in my
whole life

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Christmas Sweater~

the pale
lights outside
my old
door light
up the shadows
and leaves
that are
changing colors

my heat
flutters under
a canopy
of forget-me-knots
my worries
melt away

carved into
the fading
day there
are islands
behind my
eyes

I bought
myself a
a new
Christmas sweater
on this 
cold, blue
winter day
washed down
with pumpkin
coffee light and
caramel in
my cup

surprises in
the moonlight
tired of
the same
old thing
somewhere in
my bones
a longing
I've never
really known

the world
is made
up of
imperfect opportunities
and  near
misses, secrets
left for
someone to believe

tea and
misplaced keys
point put
the way

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Champagne and Chicken Nuggets~

I'm a
little temperamental
one with
a good heart

you picked
a seriously
odd angel
but at
but at
least I'm
consistent

take the
first step
that's all
it takes

you know
it's just
a symbol right?
I don't
actually need it

I know
I just
want to
make today
good so
the bad
fades away

it's like
a long
drive
with the
windows always
down
champagne and
chicken nuggets

I'll be
there for
you at
your bleary-eyed
worst

again in
the morning
carrying the
weight of
your heavy
eyes you
look up
at the
lavender sky

slip away
quietly then
I can
know your
heart better

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Verbs~

never underestimate
the stimulating
effect of
a fresh environment
a deviation of
routine

try using
sentences
with verbs
I'm so tired
deep in
my bones

wait a tick
I'm on
the mend
it won't
be perfect
but it
will be
an action

I do
what I
can  from
where I am

taking the
opportunity to
learn take
one action
and cover it up
with another one
words cool
cold disconnect

think of
me whenever
you can
catch your
breath undefined
but real

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Trolley~

idle wings
can't be
good for me
so let's
call it
what it is

you're the
horseradish in
my marinade
as the
day's
yawn and stretch

changing the
winds I
step out
of my line

can we
have a
greasy breakfast
on the couch?

letting my
mind wonder
this superb
sensation of
trying to
go back to
my life
it is
impossible possible

these ginger
candies are
intense feels
like I
might be
going off
my trolley

I didn't want to
tell you
what I
was thinking
because your
mind goes
off in
every direction

what a
delightful initiative
it was
cheers how
intoxicating the
smell is like
electric violets
whispers of
icy comfort

same day
different shoes
~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Stars~

the stars light up night
the teapot cries out
uncommonly good

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Midnight~

I feel
like French
curtains, white
airy thing's
that smell
of flowers
because I
can hang

I need
to peel the
wallpaper
see what's
underneath
the noise

you would
say I'm exceptional
say it
so easy
I believe it

I'm designed
to relay on
my dreams
even though
scars remain

the stars
start falling
outside on
the street

close says
shadows
it's always been
uneven wanting

tremendous trembling
in the dust
groceries and flowers
on a passing bus
that seems nice
midnight surprise
hats off
to you sir

a breath
needs to
help the fire
a warm,
glowing smile
is a waking fantasy

why didn't
you tell
me about
this superb
sensation of
getting back
to my life
possible and
impossible
tantalizing balance

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Juggle~

the sweetness
and sharpness
of turbulence
this house
was never
noisy
so why
does it
feel lonely
without you?

it takes
courage to
juggle heartache
dreams on hold

it's your
grief, darling
don't let
anyone tell
you how
to do it

coffee beans
on a tray
pungent perfume
lights up
the dark corners

the moon
is pale
and weeping
round and low
let's go
a wonder
walk

nothing great
happens when
you hold back
don't be
shy, sugar
and a dream

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Chocolate Concha~

chocolate concha
dissolves in
my mouth
like sugar water
in the
lingering morning

I'd take
another breath
and let
the sun
on my
skin lingering

all I
crave is
warm smile
a wondering
and open heart

brilliance
not a
single string
of my
heart was
unstrung
give to get
that's the
real secret
of life

all the
different colors
are fascinating
looking at
all the
small thing's
how everything
blends together

what is
strange about
time is
it's open
yet closed

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Words~

twinkle, twinkle
little star
so I can
know where
you are
gleaming, luminous
like sky snow

the ring
lost it's
shine tarnished,
rose deception
as you
get older,
you think
relationships will
get easier
but they won't
just more
doubt and
insecurity
because you
know more words

just a
game of
who will
cry first
but I'll
still help
your burdens

nice stay
there's a
great breeze
a crisp
sweetness in
the air
fades too soon
uncommonly good
but changing

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Spirited Discourse~

spend some
damn time
with m
you can't
live with
just practicality

spirited discourse
can lead
to real
solutions, or
I'm kidding
just a
bunch of
lunatics screaming
at each other

way too
happy on
a wreaking
ball we
all fall
or a end
but
its how
you get
up that
shows who
you are

a kaleidoscope
of pitfalls
and satin sighs
try to
change my
tune

my spicy
little eadmame
this is the
the moment
an beginning
or ending
but both
are are
a beautiful unfolding

even the
birds outside
want to
get it
started, it's
a spectacular
dawn even
though
I'm not
a morning person
clear and dark
that all
the city's
lights twinkle
foggy fireflies
the sun's
orange fingers
reach out
to grasp

I ask
you to
forgive
me for
letting uncertainty
get the
better
of me

when all
I really wanted
to do
with you
was run
with you
through a
puddle again

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Counts~

I talk
to bacon
because bacon
can keep
a secret

covers feel
like a cheese
lasagna comfprt
at night
when everything
is quiet
and dark

the best
and worst
things happen
in shadow

I am me
banged up
imperfect but
I won't
live in shame

there is
no shadow
you can't
light up
for me
a smile
among the din
background noise
and lies

I don't
want to
be a
ghost to
you, I
want
to be
the real
thing, fade
in when I
take a breath

illuminate it
some call
it magic
some call it
fate, either
way you
define it
it ends
up in
the same place

you're a
sneaky one
but I
prefer romantic
but I
prefer romantic
better get
going, you're
going to
be late

I'm going
to let you
in on
a little
secret. people
can show
you whatever
they want
but it's how
they make
you feel
that counts

Cheetos are sadness
that's the
problem with
a great
love, pretty
good doesn't
cut it

don't clap
for me
I'm not
dancing

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sleeping~

"Without you, I was
broken, but I'd rather
be broke with you
by my side."-Jack Johnson

sweet escape
always has
a familiar taste

it was
another sweet
dream, sometimes
I wish
I could go
on sleeping

my rose-colored
glasses fell
off, my fingers
try to
keep their touch

then the
breeze goes
I'm treading water

being picky
is just
knowing you
deserve something
great

I am
getting off
the wrong track
and getting
on the
right track

all by
myself, I'm
here again
I didn't
preheat the
oven on purpose
listen to
the sound
of my
heartbeat

even though
the lies
are
strong
it's just
a sinking
ship if
it's pretend

a breath
is just a
whisper against
the moon

I am
stepping
outside
of the
moonlight to
get into
the right place

all I
can hear
now is
the words
I can't say

out of
place, silver
lining of
dawn, only
silence stays

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Chasm~

"I woke up
between memory
and a dream"-Tom Petty

I stumbled
across an angel
more then
then I deserve
everything I need
gentle as
a dove
fair as
a Lilly

even though
the wings
are bent
they're still
not broken
I know
where I
want to be
I'll wait
ever patiently

footprints pattern
the sand
never knowing
what there
is to find

time is
moving slow
but this
chaos is
designed for me
even though
I refuse
desire never
really leaves

this chasm
is dark
but there's
still a
light glowing

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Calm~

is this
romance? No,
It's undefined
filing the
pain away
in the
corners of
my mind

I feel
like I'm
hibernating
again with
the cold
weather the
clean  calm
it's just
dark and
angry ready
to change

I'm not
ready to
come back
to this
empty place

breathing should
be easy
call it
a lesson

the stars
tend to
make sense
when you
want them to

a reflective
chilling time
a change
of time
is called
winter time

a English rose
ethereal and earthly
calm in
my eyes
I know
who you are

icy swirls
fall into
the air
and just
shiver there

the cold
brings everything
to light

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Cloak and Dagger~

sorry, let's
not talk
about this
you seem
exhausted have
a muffin

every thing's tied
together and
I don't
know how
to feel
speed bumps along
the way
that need
to happen

I wonder what
it would
be like
if we
were more
direct, I'm
thinking it
would be
less stress
less waste
of time

all cloak
and dagger
about my
emotions but I
miss you
like sleep
my wings
aren't unbroken
I just
need to
unfold them
even though
it's undefined

~Sarah Mahina Ca;vello

~Cappucino~

cappuccino bread
and coffee
soaking, melting
in my
mouth sugar-sweet
and fragile

in the pale sun
shadows creeping
on sneakily

worn out buttons
leaves like
mosaics it's
like deja vu
and I
feel calm
just breathing

leaves are
filled with
a sparkling
singing light
that fills the
blue spaces
in between, slowly,
so slowly

everything moves
in slow
underwater motion

you let go
so easily
teach me
what I fear

just one
more sunset
to see

now I'm
skeptical of
pretty lies
hoping to
be good enough
a book
forever unread
no real
reply

the trees
keep letting
the light in
so bright
it can
hurt your
eyes

~Sarah Mahina Calvello~

~Watching Raccoons~

watching the
raccoons with
you I
remember leaning
out the
window laugh
trying to
be the first to
catch a glimpse

they climbed
up and down
the tree
slowly very slowly
carefully
curling in
curling out
falling like
nighttime gymnasts
blurring charcoal
fading into
the warm chill
of night
you shine
the light
on them
and they stop
transfixed eyes
shiny, reflective
beautiful in
the breathing
calling shadows

you say
they like light
I say
I never
knew they
liked light
but I
guess everyone
needs light

they emerged
from the trees
in the
dark shadows
bending underwater echos


raccoons giggle
when they're happy
then I
saw them again
one young raccoon
kept looking
back at
me with
wistful luminous
eyes as
if saying
goodbye
for now

everything has
to turn and change
nothing can
really change that
just try
to find
a place
where hearts
can collide

~Sarah mahina Calvello

~Fraying~

sometimes I
feel like
a plant
begging for
a touch of daylight

desolation comes
with a price
it comes
on like
a echo of
a reborn scream

can you
hear me?
I might
need you now
but I'm
not sure
the sun
has become
hazy
leaving shadows
in its
withering wake

in my life
nothing is
too clear
and easy
anymore

misty eyes
fraying at
the edges
tired of
the same
motions of
the passing days
burning the breeze

I heard
the reverberating
footsteps and
sync them
to my
muffled heartbeat

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sweet Dreams 2~

the sun
melts away
in my window

hicory wind
is smooth
I can
see the stars
from here
after the
golden glow fades

chaos of
the days
a lie
on the
side of angels

it's complex
but reality
usually is
all day
it feels
like I've
been stuck
in the mud
wheels in reverse
full of what if's

and sweet dreams

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sweet Dreams~

the sun
melts away
in my window

hicory wind
is smooth
I can
see the stars
from here
after the
golden glow fades

chaos of
the days
a lie
on the
side of angels

it's complex
but reality
usually is
all day
it feels
like I've
been stuck
in the mud
wheels in reverse
full of
what if's

I don't
want misunderstandings
things that
are left unsaid
but then again
I can't
stop living

wear this
purple is
the color
of mystery
and sexual repression
but let's go
with mystery

forget the
reasons the
shift in
the seasons
a tape
that can't rewind

took so long
to find
a semblance
what I'm looking for
but I'm still
one step behind
back into
the light
maybe there's
another way

sweet dreams
will find
me again
layered upon
my eyes
don't you
try to
take me
down


~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Silences~

I know
it's darker
to stand
alone eyes
my eyes
fractured and watery
still circles

it's good
to have silences
but I'm
worried they're
becoming uncomfortable

I just
need more time
there's way
too many
tables and stairs
to make
my way through

this is
the natural order
of things
to change

I just
have to
try to
stay unwavering
writing my
message on
the pavement

I like
you even
if you don't
bring me
doughnuts maybe
I'm confusing
baggage with experience
I'm not
scared really
I'm alert

good memories
are like
a slow song
that I
don't ever
want to end
savoring each
taste of
the passing days

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sweet Potato~

I told
you about
sweet potato fries
and how
they have
them here
and your
eyes lit up
blue and wide
like a
little boy's

that made
me happy
you said
my thing
is Trader Joes
and your
thing is
sweet potato fries
it's the
little things
get us through

my favorite
things are
just made coffee
to smell
flowers before
I see then
when it rains
when the
picnic is ending
the smell
of dog paws
on dew grass

you never
told me
how beautiful
you are
well, may
gentle. unguarded eyes
long brown hair
ok, ok
you saw me
but I
didn't see
what you
look like

story of
my life,
everything at
a distance
I appreciate
if you
kept everything
in perspective

I'm here
if you
need a
cup of coffee
what? you
heard me

I'm trying
to say
I'll be there
never disregard
your environment
be present
with whatever
nature you
can find

captivated by
the fading light
if I
could
do one
simple thing
for you
it would be
to be there
when you
needed me to

I mean
it sweeter
then it sounds
like building blocks,
it's fun
to be
an enigma

painted moon
it's on
its way
lost
in this
beautiful fantasy

time stood
eerily still
a soul
with no footprint
stay with me
and I'll
feed you
pumpernickel bread
burnt rye
dark chocolate
crumbs paving
the way
no more
soft-spoken secrets
only truth

what I
want to
hear is
you
knocking on
my door
again

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Bookmark~

seems like
I'm wasting
my time
wishing
it will
all go down

you would
have thought
by now,
I'd have
leaned something

stick with
low lights
from now on
there are
no ties
in life
where life
just comes
to you

dreams catch me
when I
fall or else
I won't
go back
at all

I refuse
to be a
bookmark
in the
blank space
that happened
to be free
ivy coiled
in my hand
pale but
not trembling

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Sunrises~

golden soft skin
gentle eyes
shimmer like
Monet's water lillys
standing in
the doorway
rose leaves
this is
more then
just physical love

smokey apple
tarts up
the air
trails of
burnt sweetness
me me
open the
window wider

some kind
of light
in the darkness
smiling troubadours
trilling guitars

I am
tired of
only sunsets
I'm looking
up for
sunrises now
never running
out of moonlight

traveling sleepless
roads now
that angels
will show
up on

having conversations
with nothing
but your eyes
I'm a
mess right now

you said
you had
a dream
where I
sung like
a nightingale

and that
made it
better
more bearable
and I
will never
stop watching
as you leave

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Break~

distant footsteps
on the ground
I can't
just sit
and pretend
I have
to see
what's behind
your eyes

not hiding
intentions anymore
some days
take less
than more
out of me

I wish
it were raining
another name
another time
to self-correct again

I like
who I am
I like
to be
boring and centered
as much as I
can be

this is
a thought
I hope
you see

suppressing emotions
of devotion
finger intertwined
wind and
sky peacock-blue
and shimmering

the angels
need you here
sometimes to
find myself
I have to
get far away
from the
world
I have known

I  have
to leave
to come
home again
without a
compass but
with a
safe heart

but still,
the heart
always finds
a new way
to break
just a
little more

I still
am seeking
someone
to share
starlight with

a place
where people
come alive
full moon
over the sea
a place where
we can
go arm in arm

there is
something in
the middle
that intrigues me

balance, rhythm
unique constellation
of attributes
that disappears
and reappears again
under the
shadowed curtain
of night

you know, sometimes
you're done
with feelings
but they're
not done
with you

there is
a chill
in the air

but it's clear
and clear
an evening
to play
Lumineers and
Mumford and Sons
in pajamas
a hot drink
steams me up
in a hug

I saw
a dead moth
on the sink
and almost
cried
I'm a mess

there;s a
lot of
sunsets
I still
haven't seen
seems like
I'm wasting time
wishing it
would all
go down
stuck in
the low lights

the perfect
color refracted
blue, rainbow,
green violet
iridescent pieces
to hold close

~Sarah Mahina Cal

~Light~

when terrible
happen you
have to
figure out
where the
light is

I don't
know if
I can
I'm the base
if you
really listen
you can
hear me

the moon
feels like
it came out
late tonight

everything shining
so bright
awash in
silver and sharp light
gold shadows
distracted by sounds

I want to
find a
new  way
to breathe
a palm
tree with
with long,
lacy strands
that sparkle
in the
reflected light
of our
fading footsteps

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Hourglass~

follow the
changing seasons
as the
leaves change
with every
new bloom
it fades

as we
take it
step-by-step
nobody is
to blame
for such
a try
just confusion
the haze inside

all the while,
going through
the toils
of the
passing days
hold me
tight

better slow
it down
find the time
open my eyes
before I
run out
of it
the hourglass
doesn't wait
for anyone

making up
my own ending
I'll let
you know
how I feel
at least
the wind
is in our favor

they spin
web for me
it's amazing
that you
chose to
show grace
to a wretch
like me

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Rain~

you said more
pressure
but modulate,
baby, modulate

I can't stop
something I
didn't start
praying that
the light
isn't fading

rain, get
off my
window teasing
calling me
home

lanky, reedy
elfin creature
with a
brilliant mind
I did
it I
should own it
lashing out
isn't a strengh
it's a weakness

all that
quiet hoping
I suppose
now I
am free
just a
little late
in the day

trembling hands
of uncertainty
don't spend
your whole
life waiting

I like
meeting people
on the steps
different paths
crossing at
different times

there's something
about cold air
that brings life
back to you

we left
with ourselves
with no place
to go
holding onto
a shape
having to
let go
of the story

it's more
of a shadow now,
a echo
find a
moment
in the dream

I have
my moments
yes, you
do

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Flower~

I want
to be here
not lacking,
just complete

 here in
a complete moment
present but
not scared
of this reality

life's an
adventure
or it's nothing
flirted?
you mean
the way
I didn't stop
you from talking

just some
loneliness a
little bit
of disregard
that's not
much of
a plan

I don't know,
there's miracles everyday

in every relationship
there is
a flower
and there is
a gardener
for awhile

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Truth~

so many
feelings still
left in
my arsenal
but I end
up never
getting a
chance to
show it

cue the
salt in
the wound
real people
smell like
pine resin

waiting for
things to happen
is like
watching the
seasons change
the air is changing
and I
get excited

hopeful again
finally the
bundle of
tears is
gone forever

there's grief
and there's worship
it's over
face the truth
the ship
has sailed
in one
true direction
not for
nothing
no more weights
tied to
the ground
no more
pretending now

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Middle~

in the
middle you
feel it's
never gonna
end like
a big yard
big enough
to get
lost in

wild blends
into one
watercolor color
until the
grass
is the only
thing that
moves

don't look
at me
with that
tone
of voice

we are
free daylights
shaking the trees
no more
clouds to
put away

lay your
troubles on
the ground
you don't
have to
worry about
them now

I'm no
good at
giving up
the ink
is still
drying where
I wrote
your name

dreaming of
escape colors are
fading but
I grasp
them in
my fingers
colored spiderwebs
invisible but not

the signals
broke I'm focused
on your
name soon
I'll move
forward

I feel light
even though
things come
to weigh
me down after all,
it's just gravity
and the
streetlamp is
glowing lighting
the shadows
revealing the
path that
I should
follow

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Parable~

that hellish
shaky bridge
we all
have to
cross

add a
parable
shape up
don't ship
out
with all
the demons
I possess
I will
try
to tread that
good line

I seek
many things
before I
roll back
into
the ground

up to
me to find
any sense
that is proper
there has
to be
a way
around

I'll do
all I can
but I
can't make
any promises
in this
chaotic merry-go-round

if you
ever need
something from
me I
will meet
you half-way

the hairs
on the stems
of the icy violet
trembles like
sugary dark purple
tears

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Marshmallows~

you look nice
from a
passing stranger
there are
still good
surprises
out there

some things
in life
are more
important then money
ya that's
true, but
they all
cost money

better get
your marshmallows
because I'm
on fire
I'm just
fine

the clouds
are creeping
across my
eyes like
a curse

it haunts me
it's easy
to forget
my name
when there
is beauty here

It's dark
out there
better bring
your halo
that's funny

no more
storybook number
of ribbons
happy nothings
forget-me knots

someone should
send you
a rose
and remind
you you
have a
real friend

I don't
want to
spend another
second in
this waster air

don't leave
me here
no telling
how far
that story
really goes


~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Burning~

it's another
unfolding
another day
can't just be another
moment

respect me
I'm a
bullet undercover
coming out
of burnt ashes
bitter and sweet smoking
I'll be
whole again
I'll prove it
like I've never
been burning
in the
first place
this is not
worth pretending
it's good

step away
from my door
with your
harbingers
of shadows
too long
on the floor

I wish
I can
but I
just can't

no one
is getting blown
up today
I didn't
pay the
gas bill

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Reveling~

there's a
storm hanging
in the air
about to
come on

there's a light
that's too faraway
there's secrets
that are
too raveling
to hide

sometimes the
things that
seem rock solid
can crack open too

in this
riot I
know I'll
find myself
in time

I'll just
decide to
try again
and fail
better
do everything
with a handshake

see everything
with the eyes
of a beautiful
and strange bird
quiet teal
of a peacock
finding a
hand to hold
not gonna
be afraid
to dream
underneath the
stars

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Seamlessly~

seamlessly doing
my best
to integrate
myself into
the picture

It was
a lonely moment
wanting to
belong to something
until you  see

but not
everything I
see is true
layers upon layers
of half-truths

but still
the way
we see
each other
is impossible
to misinterpret
the most honest
is when
we can
acknowledge ourselves
as liars

I miss you
when I can't sleep
in the
quiet moments
of honey
and milk
coffee mosaic
spills down
to the sun

love dreams
in water
suspended and true
for so long
we have been better

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Colorless Excuses~

I picked
you up
off the
floor once,
but I'm
getting too
old for
that kind
of heavy lifting

a mystery
inside an enigma
too many
pieces too
fit together

allow your
heart to
take a sip
putting hopes
and cares
shelf it away
until only
the dust
knows
it's there

the world
is shadowed
in sun
all I'm
wanting is
a little clarity
save it
for a
rainy day

falling behind
everything we left
baffled by echoes
blue in
my veins
aching in
my chest

so that's
what I've
come to
the fear
of being myself
has me
forgetting who
I really am

no more
colorless excuses

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Change~

sometimes chaos
is what's
called for

you are
my heartbeat
in the hallway
feeling like
tomorrow never
comes
I always
knew that
someday they
would weaponize tackiness
all your
subliminal comments
are fake
like the
plastic neon
signs that
crowd the streets

hearts get
torn over
time
burning f;ames in
my bones
I came
in hot
like a housewife
ready to
throw down
running out
of words
to say

you just
drink milk
and watch CNN
when you
black out
I steal
your carrot cake

a lot
of things
don't make sense
nickels are
bigger then dimes
but they
have more
to value

Tick Tock
the angel
on my
shoulder is
getting
harder to
hang onto

haunting me
tonight sweet
velvet touch

could you
try to relax?
you tell me
I'm making
the coffee nervous

light waiting
for  me
to decide
but the
clock is
just getting louder
I can't
escape history
but I
can change

~Sarah Mahina

~Sugar~

the greatest
tool of
an architect
is their eyes
you have
beautiful eyes

like a
French bakery
blue eyes
go on
for rolls
and rolls

let's have
coffee at midnight
you told me
it's hard
because we
met our
soul mates
already but
our life's
a mess

I'm so tired
of smiling
pretending its
sunny out

waves of
feelings
I should
feel wash
over me
but it seems
like I'm
just waiting

when you
black out
I steal
your carrot cake

Per Se
give me
a spoonful
of sugar
for the day

I saw
a bumblebee
sneeze
he complained
you were
too slow
and flew
away

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Shoes~

why don't
you have
a beer
and a
bowl of
chowder
with me
before you go

you can crash
my party anytime
make me
hum like
a butterfly
balancing on
a latent leaf
waiting for
something

fast like
moving in
a daydream
tell me
how to
make right
all the
wrong turns
I've made

one chance
for beauty
someone left
fresh cut flowers
on my
windowsill this
morning it
was sweet
I'll  be sure
to tell him

fold me
in your
arms again
I'm origami
that's where
I'm safe
from harm
and can forget
I'm messed up

it's all over now, baby blue
I can
understand because
you're not
wearing the right shoes
you don't
really see
me standing here

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Tea Party~

smelling like
safety and coconuts
my favorite scarf
light and lavender
seems to
make the
air lighter

my life
is made
up of
coffee grounds
stain by stain
day by day

love isn't
going to
work without
forgiveness

trying to
cover up
the hurt
we do
to each other

the subliminal comments
break off, break on,
you're an
infraction

should things
go terribly
wrong, it's nice
to have
a place
to go
for a, you know,
a cup of tea

favorite flowers
and dessert
on a silver platter
it's all
a tea party scene

unseemly and undefined
there's always
a gravity to the situation
everything has
to equal
out in
this chaotic
tea party
we call life

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Eyes~

you better
be right
I usually am
not anymore
you're losing
your edge cupcake

so cute
when you're
oblivious too
dizzy watching
the straight line
lost in
my sensibilities

trying to
make it better
piece by piece
I don't
want to
be a
faded memory

I want
to be
 a real thing
this isn't
clear or easy

this will
be so
much easier
if you
open up
and communicate

don't just
do what
you want
there's real
there's make-believe
this seems real
to me

I think
it's better
if you
look in
my eyes

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Doorway~

I rub
my back
on a doorway
stretching as
time stands still
just for a second
in the
morning when
the silence
changes with the light

I have
become
a creature
of habit
always making
my coffee
the same
way, with
hot chocolate
and cinnamon

the smell
and taste
makes my
lips tingle
I think
I found
peace of
mind but
sweetness
never lasts
like it should

angels in
my dreams
can turn
to demons
of greed
if I'm
not careful
if I don't
get back
to good
smile curving
shyly with
a secret
take it
velvet strong

remember what
it was
like to take
you in
cozy soul
a cup
of strong tea
stream curls
around me
in a hug
let it be

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Lag~

like Tom Hanks said,
a hero is
someone who
voluntarily walks
into the unknown

I don't
know what
the tide will
bring in
the next day
it's a
toss of
the coin
a chance
I'll take

I open
the window
to feel
a zephyr
a soft,
gentle breeze
as I sleep

looks like
I'll have
to recallobrate
I don't
have
enough voltage
to face
the days
too much
lag

maybe if
I keep walking
I'll find
a valley
where no one
has a
broken heart

but I
have a
feeling that
will be
a loveless place

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Raccoon

tonight
in the
shockingly still
night air
the world
looked like
washed charcoal
and the
trees trembled
softly, tentatively

a raccoon
it's sharp nose
and soft angles
looked at
me, unmoving
until I closed
my window

time is
like an ocean
singular but unbroken
I don't
want tot's
come down
from my cloud

the stars
are suspended
don't be
afraid I 
only the
night coming on

alone with
my window
at night
and the
corners
of my room
the loss
of opportunity
went out
with the light

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Pastries~

    ~Photo by Emily Citaro


blood for blood
that's not justice
that's escalation
find a link
to hold onto
in the disarray

I hope
our paths
cross again
sometime
pale yellow
flowers shimmer
in the breeze

I don't want
to share
I don't
want to
eat pastries
I want to
change things
I can't

I got
to make hey
while the
sun shines
wait while
the storm passes
under troubled clouds

maybe I
can be
the light
in all that darkness
there's a
lot of darkness
but there's
also light
to uncover

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~In Between~

you leave
me talking
to a blank space
and I
never really
know where
you are

I feel
as nervous
as a
cat in
a roomful
of rocking chairs
but I
don't know
what to
feel exactly

this strange in between
an pause
in the silence
leaves me
wanting
toiling in
an uncountable stillness

maple lattes
and new journals
fresh ink and paper in the biting cold
only my breath
yields

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Harmony~

Seagulls gather

And fly

Your comments

Are always

On my mind

Coming to

Terms with

with reality

with eternity

harmony leaves

a mark

custom scar

write your name

deeper then

every part

of skin

my pretty

bird just

flew our

to the

bluest sky

not coming back

saying goodbye

to the stressful

yesterday that

held me

a breath

away

I am

here for

the real

straight to

your heart

times

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Butterfly Kisses~

Boston cream
doughnuts and
the slow glow
of sunset
I've always
been told
I'm an
old soul

dreamers have
idea's but
doer's have plans
that's what
I've come
to find

colors balance
on skin
from the
sunset like
the butterfly kisses
wished for

streaming clouds
gather and shout
birds scream
like a
black stain
of sad sweetness

no one
can be
like me
in this
colorful charade
but I
desire to
dance a change

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Show~

"Comes a light, feeling's a'liftin,
Lift that baby right up off the ground-"Neil Young, There Comes a Time

cocoa and chaos
caramel and conformity
burying me
in the shattering underwater softness

I remember
that day
you walked
up to me
asking if
you can sit here

black eyes
shimmering like water
looked right through me
adorably dim
but sharp

you're still
there for me
not like
staircases and windows
getting in my way

but you're
too young
you don't know
what you
just butter
them up
with my toast
while you
leave my
heart pounding

you're supportive
like the
floor with
nothing genuine
underneath

putting my
feet where
they should
go through
the motions
through the show
which I'm
not made
for

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Steer~

all that
has been
defined
just falls
apart burning
off desire

charred embers
smokes a graying trail
but none
of the paths
were different

don't break
the spell
we were
all someone
else before

shadows bounce onto
the walls
silence is
starting to
leave an echo
stardust falls
on my eyes

I change
shape just
to hide
I can't
do it over
getting older

no differences
in my past
now or never
all you can do
is do it better

I don't
feel like
a spring flower
I feel more
like potpourri

but steer
my stumbles
the day
isn't done
forged in adventure
sealed with abandon

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Road~

Comfort can
become the
enemy of progress

hunting echos
of old songs
bounce along
the empty walk
and crumbling flowers

bad times
get the whisky
sweet like
candy in
my veins
tick tock
goes the Gouda clock

you make
my heart
beat like
falling rain
if I
call you
a idiot
count yourself
lucky

I can't
live my life
like I'm
designing
a building
you just
have to live it

through the
good and
the bad times
I don't
want to loose
this moment

the only
reason we
grow old
is the
we stop playing

I like
the highway
I close my eyes
and I'm at the beach

if I'm
not chocolate or coffee
it's hard
to know
what I'm here for
I can't
just jump
to the end
the journey
is the
best part
I heard

in the
passionate wind
show me
the piece
of my
heart
I've been
missing
the road
always leads
backwards

~Sarah Mahina Calvelllo

~Starlight~

it feels
like I'm drunk
on starlight
something in directed
and unexpected

salt hands
lay open
and waiting has begun
for the hungry deer
in the
velvet night
this has begun

I think
we fell
in love with
the trees
as much
as anything

gardens look
only like
gardens can
so that
I can look
back
on who I was
going back
in time
to reveal

I will
trust you
without borders
keep my
eyes about
the ocean
I could be
lonely
with you

tragic, but
also pure
I will
find a way
even without wings

here, capture
this moment
I think
you need
Salvador Dali
to capture
this moment
but ok

spin me
around with
the roar
of the clouds
selling virtue
and all
the things
I'll be missing
I just don't know

sometimes our
best decisions
are the
ones that
make no
sense at all

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Embrace~

got to
be ready
even though
we break
life is unchangeable

life is
best when
it resembles
a musical

I watch
the wind
cut through
the clouds
tress hanging
in risky suspention
a place
where secrets accumulate

we rise
to the top
dreaming with
eyes wide open
no matter
where the
smiles come
from, they're
not fake

crossing the plane
to draw my way
a trick of the light
until my soul
rests in
your embrace

~Sarah Mahina Calvello~

~Lesson~

"What are you
going to do
with all that dark?
Find a way
to glow in it"-Amanda Torroni

pieces of cherry
floating in wine
my shrinking eyes
are still dreaming

nothing makes
sense of this madness
this grand chaos
hearts get
torn like mistakes
nothing ever
stays the same

don't bend
like water
or try
to make
it logical
it never is

anything worth
having you
have to go
trough the pain

once in awhile,
a lesson comes along
with no reason
bit my bit
pieces that fit
together awkwardly

glass shimmers
and my heart
is happy
at the sound
finding a
new way
to glow

searching for
something shiny
something meaningful

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Endurance~

there's an
unexpected art
in endurance
grasping onto
what I
think reality
is supposed
to look like

memories never
leave your bones
bad and good
traces skin
edges of stars
play in dreams

a calming sound
a sea salt kiss
everything
lain out
like a map
of the heart
never to be
pulled apart

I'm a book
leaf trough
my pages
take the time
to actually know

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Unfolding~

sit on
this bench
with me
no one really
knows what
emotions are
supposed to feel

I won't
be satisfied if
I play along
noting is
set in stone
nothing
by design

some wounds
never show

on the body
but they
are deep
always quiet;y

lingering

I don't
see any cracks
maybe a few wrinkles

today is

my favorite day

only unfolding

forwards

a window

only shows

what's ahead

light only

collapses it

doesn't crumble

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Passing~

leaves crinkle
outside my window
dark velvet
charcoal kind
of night

it lures you
the layers
of the darkness
searching for
the calm
even though
my soul
feels sordid
 and crazy

i feel
it shifting
not the
same person
as I was
no more
time for
maybe

a twist
in mt story
unexpected turn
I'm not a
passing fancy

stumbling across
the most
random stardust
making it
hard for breathing
charting my epiphany
between my lines
it's just
another lesson
not a
life sentence

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Scars~

"Reaching out
to her
if like drinking
from a memory"-Edgar Allen Poe

gasping for air
I know you
these curves
are not
based on
illusion
the clock
only ticks
forward

skies seem
to be
more blue
we clean up
each other's scares
don't ask
how I
did it
just to
do it again

a flower
breathing and opening
in the night buckles
of velvet trees

wearing the
scent of us
like smoke
going against
the grain
of skin

even though
it goes
against the
grain of skin
buckling and
bending in
I will
survive the night
and just
begun

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Leaves~

there's always
going to
by a
little rain
that breaks
through
hope lingers

I love it
when the
weather is rainy
especially in
the smoke

not all
storms come
into your life
to ruin it
some come
to clear
a path

make a move
when i rewrite
my life
I light up
and blossom fire

it's only
a line
if it
gets crossed

lightheaded, I
take a sip
of what
could be
that bubbly hope
a little unsteady
but true

this house
doesn't feel
like home anymore
demons lie
in wait
under the skin

this beautiful mess
the shift
of recognition
bent lilacs
in the moonlight

cut from
a different kind
of cloth
mismatched mosaic
of stars
taught to
retrain desires
blushing breath
goes back
to good

as the leaves change
don't say
what you don't
mean

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Reality~

your dark
but warm love
a coffee stain
spiraling down
leaving their mark
on my pale arm

turning caramel brown
a moment
not forgotten
leaning into
your truth
and I
can't help
but smile

your ruby lips
hanging on
a glass
all we
of iced tea

today is
gonna be
the day
time is
all we
really needed

you're an
irresistible force
as sweet
as summer
so sweet
you made
my teeth hurt

I like
how the
water misbehaved
when it started raining
hours disappear
into more hours

now we
have a cup
of rain
every light
leaves a memory
a mark
a metaphor
in blue

keep my
heartbeat quiet
everyone needs
a hot chocolate friend
to lean on
when thing
get tough

overcoming fear
is the quickest
way to
confidence

so we
can start
again

take it
from my heart
and put
it in your hand

let's get
out of here
I don't
want to
share you
you with
the riffraff
don't be
in denial
of reality

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Unpredictable~

Mind those

Unpredictable vibrations

In the

Clouded silence

Watching,”phantom of the opera “

Alone with

Faded pink candlelight

And the

Heady smell

Of ground coffee

I’ve never

Been happier

To be alone

The candle

Brightens and dims

Ebbs and flows

All at once

Teasing

The shadows

Reversing whatever

Pain the day

Left me

Out of

The shiny night

The past

Came calling

Rolling and Turbulent

This is not

Where I belong

But the rain

Was quiet

And soft

And it seemed

What a dream

Would feel like

Isn’t it surprising

That fortune

Ebbs and flows

Exactly like

A candle?

-Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Rhetoric~

you caught me
in your glow
at just
the
right time

every house
has a personality
ours just
likes to
be heard

good people
don't destroy
people's life
and call
it noble

I've seen
some strange things
in my day
but this
takes the cake

even the
walls seem
to shiver
but we'll do it
we'll get
out of here

I will
make it
a personal mission
to protect
your heart
though I
don't know
exactly how
to feel

I haven't
found it yet
but I know
what I'm looking for

cut through
the ash
soft and still
crumbling walls
are trembling
won't you
come a
little closer?
dust blown
by the wind

well they
say madness
is the closest
thing to genius
so walk away
it;s all
so full of
rhetoric
looking exotic
the more
I see
the less
I am
sure of

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Clock~

today I found
a clock
bruised and broken
but beautiful

roman numerals
cogs and wheels
something inside
left to find

not pretending
not hiding
it is
what it is
on the sidewalk
alone and beckoning

it was
an act of
romanticized serendipity
sometimes I
think if
I believe it
it will be real

not another
lost star
rhyming, chiming
in their timing
if nothing else,
I know how
I felt

your smile
is a  yellow daisy
open and falling
I like
to see you
smile and
then you
won't feel alone

stay don't
surrender through
the flame
my glass
heart refuses
to stay in tatters

while the
stars are
raining in
the silken sky
let it go
find a
way back
to inspiration

I wanted to
go up and swing
higher I
think we
can get
you halfway
around

the meta;
that turns
are just
passing moments

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Tonight~

sun and
hollow sky
looking out
the window
I sigh
the stars
are out
tonight

down comes
the night
the wind
blowing circles
around me
follow my
lead

dancing lights
against the
break of day
waiting for
something
to say

everyday discovering
the brand new
I want
to thank
you for you
patience
memories have
a way
of rising
up, especially
painful ones

see the
trees, how
they move?
how does
that really
make you feel?
calm, I guess

that's it
right there
you think you
should feel
calm but
you don't
really feel it

you have
to see in
different
ways, move
in different ways
there is
a pulse

a beautiful sunrise
look at
how much
it holds

you want
to make
the kind
of memory
that stays

it's never
really a
straight path
to follow
time will
tell

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Nightingale~

you told me
that you
had a dream
that I
sang like
a nightingale

you were
the only one
who believed
in me
among the
mocking laughter

clean the
dirt off
until mud
runs clean

weather you
realize it
or not
you came back
at exactly
the right time

it's been
too long
but we
don't have to
be alone anymore

it's a
pie-worthy moment
hang onto it
it's hard
to find
a moment
just as good

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Second Chance~

"Life can only be
understood backwards.
Unfortunately, it must be
lived forever."-Kierkegaard

love at first sight
is just something
they created
for greeting cards

I think
we get
so wrapped
up in
our own
lives and
we forget
about the
people who
 really care
about you

find the
person behind
the words
tell me
who you are
it's all
about connection
don't forget
that I
think the
worst part
is fake
sympathy looks
from strangers

the trick
is getting
to know
them, trust me
when the
right one
comes along
you'll know

get to
know people
I intend to

what's the secret?
everyday is
like day one
if you
ever find
it in
your heart
to forgive me
give me
a call
you always
were one
in a million

it's scary
and a
little exciting
to find
out it's
finally a
two-way street
it's never
too late
to get it right

the tiniest ripple
could alter things
enjoy it
but do
not tamper
with it

making a
wish at
the old
wishing well
holds whispered
promise

shadows lighten
on trees
and I
smile because
I'm caught
in a sunbeam

I don't
know how
long this
is going
to last
but I'm
going to
enjoy the ride

this is
the strangest
whimsy that
had ever
happened to me
white flowers
hang curved and full
second chances
are true and
genuine

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Apple Tree's~

I'm sorry
but sometimes
good gravy
doesn't cut it

stop putting
my teeth
on edge
don't sound
so shocked
I wasn't
born decrypted

remember, if
you can read
you can cook
and always
feed yourself

I couldn't
concentrate I
liked watching
his eyes
under the
quiet wind
of apple trees
that's where
I did
my dreaming

I always
thought if
I lived there
I could write
under the
apple trees
and be happy
but it
wasn't meant
to be

 too fancy
for my chapter
thinking is
just a
fancy word
for idle

~Sarah Mahina Calvello