~Lesson~

"What are you
going to do
with all that dark?
Find a way
to glow in it"-Amanda Torroni

pieces of cherry
floating in wine
my shrinking eyes
are still dreaming

nothing makes
sense of this madness
this grand chaos
hearts get
torn like mistakes
nothing ever
stays the same

don't bend
like water
or try
to make
it logical
it never is

anything worth
having you
have to go
trough the pain

once in awhile,
a lesson comes along
with no reason
bit my bit
pieces that fit
together awkwardly

glass shimmers
and my heart
is happy
at the sound
finding a
new way
to glow

searching for
something shiny
something meaningful

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Endurance~

there's an
unexpected art
in endurance
grasping onto
what I
think reality
is supposed
to look like

memories never
leave your bones
bad and good
traces skin
edges of stars
play in dreams

a calming sound
a sea salt kiss
everything
lain out
like a map
of the heart
never to be
pulled apart

I'm a book
leaf trough
my pages
take the time
to actually know

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Unfolding~

sit on
this bench
with me
no one really
knows what
emotions are
supposed to feel

I won't
be satisfied if
I play along
noting is
set in stone
nothing
by design

some wounds
never show

on the body
but they
are deep
always quiet;y

lingering

I don't
see any cracks
maybe a few wrinkles

today is

my favorite day

only unfolding

forwards

a window

only shows

what's ahead

light only

collapses it

doesn't crumble

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Passing~

leaves crinkle
outside my window
dark velvet
charcoal kind
of night

it lures you
the layers
of the darkness
searching for
the calm
even though
my soul
feels sordid
 and crazy

i feel
it shifting
not the
same person
as I was
no more
time for
maybe

a twist
in mt story
unexpected turn
I'm not a
passing fancy

stumbling across
the most
random stardust
making it
hard for breathing
charting my epiphany
between my lines
it's just
another lesson
not a
life sentence

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Scars~

"Reaching out
to her
if like drinking
from a memory"-Edgar Allen Poe

gasping for air
I know you
these curves
are not
based on
illusion
the clock
only ticks
forward

skies seem
to be
more blue
we clean up
each other's scares
don't ask
how I
did it
just to
do it again

a flower
breathing and opening
in the night buckles
of velvet trees

wearing the
scent of us
like smoke
going against
the grain
of skin

even though
it goes
against the
grain of skin
buckling and
bending in
I will
survive the night
and just
begun

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Leaves~

there's always
going to
by a
little rain
that breaks
through
hope lingers

I love it
when the
weather is rainy
especially in
the smoke

not all
storms come
into your life
to ruin it
some come
to clear
a path

make a move
when i rewrite
my life
I light up
and blossom fire

it's only
a line
if it
gets crossed

lightheaded, I
take a sip
of what
could be
that bubbly hope
a little unsteady
but true

this house
doesn't feel
like home anymore
demons lie
in wait
under the skin

this beautiful mess
the shift
of recognition
bent lilacs
in the moonlight

cut from
a different kind
of cloth
mismatched mosaic
of stars
taught to
retrain desires
blushing breath
goes back
to good

as the leaves change
don't say
what you don't
mean

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Reality~

your dark
but warm love
a coffee stain
spiraling down
leaving their mark
on my pale arm

turning caramel brown
a moment
not forgotten
leaning into
your truth
and I
can't help
but smile

your ruby lips
hanging on
a glass
all we
of iced tea

today is
gonna be
the day
time is
all we
really needed

you're an
irresistible force
as sweet
as summer
so sweet
you made
my teeth hurt

I like
how the
water misbehaved
when it started raining
hours disappear
into more hours

now we
have a cup
of rain
every light
leaves a memory
a mark
a metaphor
in blue

keep my
heartbeat quiet
everyone needs
a hot chocolate friend
to lean on
when thing
get tough

overcoming fear
is the quickest
way to
confidence

so we
can start
again

take it
from my heart
and put
it in your hand

let's get
out of here
I don't
want to
share you
you with
the riffraff
don't be
in denial
of reality

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Unpredictable~

Mind those

Unpredictable vibrations

In the

Clouded silence

Watching,”phantom of the opera “

Alone with

Faded pink candlelight

And the

Heady smell

Of ground coffee

I’ve never

Been happier

To be alone

The candle

Brightens and dims

Ebbs and flows

All at once

Teasing

The shadows

Reversing whatever

Pain the day

Left me

Out of

The shiny night

The past

Came calling

Rolling and Turbulent

This is not

Where I belong

But the rain

Was quiet

And soft

And it seemed

What a dream

Would feel like

Isn’t it surprising

That fortune

Ebbs and flows

Exactly like

A candle?

-Sarah Mahina Calvello