Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Perfect Illusion




I woke up
It was raining
It was falling hard
Making the sunlight
Translucent
A silver sheet
In motion

It could have still been a dream
So I went back to sleep
The perfect
Illusion
You want
To keep

Godspeed, sister,
there and back again
Certainty is fleeting,
that is why we must have faith
But it’s hard
To find what
Reasons
I should believe
You give me what you can,
I give you what I can,
and we are  made whole by it.
I ask no more than that
with a presence
as changeable
as the weather
perfection is never smooth,
An unpolished
Stone

perfection is kindness
you give to others
I hear you telling me
A whisper
A memory
Against my skin
You will feel better than that
Will I?
Yes,
you just keep living
until you feel alive again

I’ll be a footstep away,
that’s all
I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
show me the way
To cut through

This stormy weather
Head stuck in a cycle,
Stuck in a dream,
but completely aware
It's easy
to be miserable
Being happy
takes more work
Veni, vidi, velcro - I came, I saw, I stuck.

Blue cornflowers
bent grass
I just need one good one
Be careful
Or you might
Say something
You actually mean

So rest it well
Lay your head
Until you see it
My friend

~Sarah Mahina Calvello~

Thursday, November 10, 2016

~bare~


sunshine
slowly cooling
I’m awake
but I feel like
I’m deep sleep
dreaming

I want to hold
onto
something real

this
Is me
with
my bare tree
exposed
my leaves
shaken off
along the way

really
see
The colors
hidden underneath
burning the
ground

the roots
need air
they curl
and unfurl
stay on
The moonlit side

your
not
there
but you are

excited
nervous
attention slides
over my
surface
too
many alone
busy people
around me

I’d rather light a candle
than curse the darkness
slow down, find the gap
the loveliness
of an ordinary moment
In the moment I’ll be with you
but it will be a different kind
the disease of the mind
is to set mind against mind


I break from the crowd
don’t tell me
I’m out of touch
with  your rampant chaos
your reality

treading
a line
it's just
discord
and rhyme
drinking
juices
and wine
you can’t
fight

the night

~Sarah Mahina Calvello~