Sunday, September 30, 2018

~Reveling~


there's a
storm hanging
in the air
about to
come on

there's a light
that's too faraway
there's secrets
that are
too raveling
to hide

sometimes the
things that
seem rock solid
can crack open too

in this
riot I
know I'll
find myself
in time

I'll just
decide to
try again
and fail
better
do everything
with a handshake

see everything
with the eyes
of a beautiful
and strange bird
quiet teal
of a peacock
finding a
hand to hold
not gonna
be afraid
to dream
underneath the
stars

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Saturday, September 29, 2018

~Seamlessly~


seamlessly doing
my best
to integrate
myself into
the picture

It was
a lonely moment
wanting to
belong to something
until you  see

but not
everything I
see is true
layers upon layers
of half-truths

but still
the way
we see
each other
is impossible
to misinterpret
the most honest
is when
we can
acknowledge ourselves
as liars

I miss you
when I can't sleep
in the
quiet moments
of honey
and milk
coffee mosaic
spills down
to the sun

love dreams
in water
suspended and true
for so long
we have been better

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Colorless Excuses~


I picked
you up
off the
floor once,
but I'm
getting too
old for
that kind
of heavy lifting

a mystery
inside an enigma
too many
pieces too
fit together

allow your
heart to
take a sip
putting hopes
and cares
shelf it away
until only
the dust
knows
it's there

the world
is shadowed
in sun
all I'm
wanting is
a little clarity
save it
for a
rainy day

falling behind
everything we left
baffled by echoes
blue in
my veins
aching in
my chest

so that's
what I've
come to
the fear
of being myself
has me
forgetting who
I really am

no more
colorless excuses

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Change~


sometimes chaos
is what's
called for

you are
my heartbeat
in the hallway
feeling like
tomorrow never
comes
I always
knew that
someday they
would weaponize tackiness
all your
subliminal comments
are fake
like the
plastic neon
signs that
crowd the streets

hearts get
torn over
time
burning f;ames in
my bones
I came
in hot
like a housewife
ready to
throw down
running out
of words
to say

you just
drink milk
and watch CNN
when you
black out
I steal
your carrot cake

a lot
of things
don't make sense
nickels are
bigger then dimes
but they
have more
to value

Tick Tock
the angel
on my
shoulder is
getting
harder to
hang onto

haunting me
tonight sweet
velvet touch

could you
try to relax?
you tell me
I'm making
the coffee nervous

light waiting
for  me
to decide
but the
clock is
just getting louder
I can't
escape history
but I
can change

~Sarah Mahina

Friday, September 28, 2018

~Sugar~


the greatest
tool of
an architect
is their eyes
you have
beautiful eyes

like a
French bakery
blue eyes
go on
for rolls
and rolls

let's have
coffee at midnight
you told me
it's hard
because we
met our
soul mates
already but
our life's
a mess

I'm so tired
of smiling
pretending its
sunny out

waves of
feelings
I should
feel wash
over me
but it seems
like I'm
just waiting

when you
black out
I steal
your carrot cake

Per Se
give me
a spoonful
of sugar
for the day

I saw
a bumblebee
sneeze
he complained
you were
too slow
and flew
away

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Shoes~

why don't
you have
a beer
and a
bowl of
chowder
with me
before you go

you can crash
my party anytime
make me
hum like
a butterfly
balancing on
a latent leaf
waiting for
something

fast like
moving in
a daydream
tell me
how to
make right
all the
wrong turns
I've made

one chance
for beauty
someone left
fresh cut flowers
on my
windowsill this
morning it
was sweet
I'll  be sure
to tell him

fold me
in your
arms again
I'm origami
that's where
I'm safe
from harm
and can forget
I'm messed up

it's all over now, baby blue
I can
understand because
you're not
wearing the right shoes
you don't
really see
me standing here

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Tea Party~


smelling like
safety and coconuts
my favorite scarf
light and lavender
seems to
make the
air lighter

my life
is made
up of
coffee grounds
stain by stain
day by day

love isn't
going to
work without
forgiveness

trying to
cover up
the hurt
we do
to each other

the subliminal comments
break off, break on,
you're an
infraction

should things
go terribly
wrong, it's nice
to have
a place
to go
for a, you know,
a cup of tea

favorite flowers
and dessert
on a silver platter
it's all
a tea party scene

unseemly and undefined
there's always
a gravity to the situation
everything has
to equal
out in
this chaotic
tea party
we call life

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Saturday, September 22, 2018

~Eyes~

you better
be right
I usually am
not anymore
you're losing
your edge cupcake

so cute
when you're
oblivious too
dizzy watching
the straight line
lost in
my sensibilities

trying to
make it better
piece by piece
I don't
want to
be a
faded memory

I want
to be
 a real thing
this isn't
clear or easy

this will
be so
much easier
if you
open up
and communicate

don't just
do what
you want
there's real
there's make-believe
this seems real
to me

I think
it's better
if you
look in
my eyes

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Thursday, September 20, 2018

~Doorway~


I rub
my back
on a doorway
stretching as
time stands still
just for a second
in the
morning when
the silence
changes with the light

I have
become
a creature
of habit
always making
my coffee
the same
way, with
hot chocolate
and cinnamon

the smell
and taste
makes my
lips tingle
I think
I found
peace of
mind but
sweetness
never lasts
like it should

angels in
my dreams
can turn
to demons
of greed
if I'm
not careful
if I don't
get back
to good
smile curving
shyly with
a secret
take it
velvet strong

remember what
it was
like to take
you in
cozy soul
a cup
of strong tea
stream curls
around me
in a hug
let it be

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Lag~


like Tom Hanks said,
a hero is
someone who
voluntarily walks
into the unknown

I don't
know what
the tide will
bring in
the next day
it's a
toss of
the coin
a chance
I'll take

I open
the window
to feel
a zephyr
a soft,
gentle breeze
as I sleep

looks like
I'll have
to recallobrate
I don't
have
enough voltage
to face
the days
too much
lag

maybe if
I keep walking
I'll find
a valley
where no one
has a
broken heart

but I
have a
feeling that
will be
a loveless place

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Raccoon

tonight
in the
shockingly still
night air
the world
looked like
washed charcoal
and the
trees trembled
softly, tentatively

a raccoon
it's sharp nose
and soft angles
looked at
me, unmoving
until I closed
my window

time is
like an ocean
singular but unbroken
I don't
want tot's
come down
from my cloud

the stars
are suspended
don't be
afraid
only the
night coming on

alone with
my window
at night
and the
corners
of my room
the loss
of opportunity
went out
with the light

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Pastries~


    ~Photo by Emily Citaro


blood for blood
that's not justice
that's escalation
find a link
to hold onto
in the disarray

I hope
our paths
cross again
sometime
pale yellow
flowers shimmer
in the breeze

I don't want
to share
I don't
want to
eat pastries
I want to
change things
I can't

I got
to make hey
while the
sun shines
wait while
the storm passes
under troubled clouds

maybe I
can be
the light
in all that darkness
there's a
lot of darkness
but there's
also light
to uncover

~Sarah Mahina Calvello


~In Between~


you leave
me talking
to a blank space
and I
never really
know where
you are

I feel
as nervous
as a
cat in
a roomful
of rocking chairs
but I
don't know
what to
feel exactly

this strange in between
an pause
in the silence
leaves me
wanting
toiling in
an uncountable stillness

maple lattes
and new journals
fresh ink and paper in the biting cold
only my breath
yields

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Monday, September 10, 2018

~Harmony~

Seagulls gather
And fly
Your comments
Are always
On my mind

Coming to
Terms with
with reality
with eternity

harmony leaves
a mark
custom scar
write your name
deeper then
every part
of skin

my pretty
bird just
flew our
to the
bluest sky

not coming back
saying goodbye
to the stressful
yesterday that
held me
a breath
away

I am
here for
the real
straight to
your heart
times

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Sunday, September 9, 2018

~Butterfly Kisses~

Boston cream
doughnuts and
the slow glow
of sunset
I've always
been told
I'm an
old soul

dreamers have
idea's but
doer's have plans
that's what
I've come
to find

colors balance
on skin
from the
sunset like
the butterfly kisses
wished for

streaming clouds
gather and shout
birds scream
like a
black stain
of sad sweetness

no one
can be
like me
in this
colorful charade
but I
desire to
dance a change

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Show~

"Comes a light, feeling's a'liftin,
Lift that baby right up off the ground-"Neil Young, There Comes a Time

cocoa and chaos
caramel and conformity
burying me
in the shattering underwater softness

I remember
that day
you walked
up to me
asking if
you can sit here

black eyes
shimmering like water
looked right through me
adorably dim
but sharp

you're still
there for me
not like
staircases and windows
getting in my way

but you're
too young
you don't know
what you
just butter
them up
with my toast
while you
leave my
heart pounding

you're supportive
like the
floor with
nothing genuine
underneath

putting my
feet where
they should
go through
the motions
through the show
which I'm
not made
for

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Steer~


all that
has been
defined
just falls
apart burning
off desire

charred embers
smokes a graying trail
but none
of the paths
were different

don't break
the spell
we were
all someone
else before

shadows bounce onto
the walls
silence is
starting to
leave an echo
stardust falls
on my eyes

I change
shape just
to hide
I can't
do it over
getting older

no differences
in my past
now or never
all you can do
is do it better

I don't
feel like
a spring flower
I feel more
like potpourri

but steer
my stumbles
the day
isn't done
forged in adventure
sealed with abandon

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

Monday, September 3, 2018

~Road~


Comfort can
become the
enemy of progress

hunting echos
of old songs
bounce along
the empty walk
and crumbling flowers

bad times
get the whisky
sweet like
candy in
my veins
tick tock
goes the Gouda clock

you make
my heart
beat like
falling rain
if I
call you
a idiot
count yourself
lucky

I can't
live my life
like I'm
designing
a building
you just
have to live it

through the
good and
the bad times
I don't
want to loose
this moment

the only
reason we
grow old
is the
we stop playing

I like
the highway
I close my eyes
and I'm at the beach

if I'm
not chocolate or coffee
it's hard
to know
what I'm here for
I can't
just jump
to the end
the journey
is the
best part
I heard

in the
passionate wind
show me
the piece
of my
heart
I've been
missing
the road
always leads
backwards

~Sarah Mahina Calvelllo

~Starlight~

it feels
like I'm drunk
on starlight
something in directed
and unexpected

salt hands
lay open
and waiting has begun
for the hungry deer
in the
velvet night
this has begun

I think
we fell
in love with
the trees
as much
as anything

gardens look
only like
gardens can
so that
I can look
back
on who I was
going back
in time
to reveal

I will
trust you
without borders
keep my
eyes about
the ocean
I could be
lonely
with you

tragic, but
also pure
I will
find a way
even without wings

here, capture
this moment
I think
you need
Salvador Dali
to capture
this moment
but ok

spin me
around with
the roar
of the clouds
selling virtue
and all
the things
I'll be missing
I just don't know

sometimes our
best decisions
are the
ones that
make no
sense at all

Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Embrace~

got to
be ready
even though
we break
life is unchangeable

life is
best when
it resembles
a musical

I watch
the wind
cut through
the clouds
tress hanging
in risky suspention
a place
where secrets accumulate

we rise
to the top
dreaming with
eyes wide open
no matter
where the
smiles come
from, they're
not fake

crossing the plane
to draw my way
a trick of the light
until my soul
rests in
your embrace

~Sarah Mahina Calvello~