~Birds and Rain~

this morning,

I feel trapped

and crazy

desperate

for something

I don’t know

a new life

and clean air

crimson paper

curls and frays

on our tree outside

off the offered branch

like carnelian paper

in the fading sunlight

and the light rain

is wet and sighing

today,

3 black crows

nestled

in the thie black jade

leaves

outside my window

with their new feathers

like half fans

on the wind

simplified and distorted

at the same time

I left because I was in love

and  was afraid

your ash would burn me

I know who you are

not who you’re not

please forgive me

if I misread

your heart

~Sarah Mahina Calvello

~Seams~

underwater  dreams

of coral reefs and forgotten things

weaves in a out

between the seams

of dreams and reality

the curve

of the moon

waits for you

lily white and cold

and lonely

hangng in the cold black

where the whisps of wind curl

god only knows

when I’ll see you again

I miss you

but I’m doing alright

I remember

your moon flowers

veiny spiral

with jagged edges

blue, purple, and white

a flock of color

that frays and folds

paper on the wind

let me borrow some warth

balancing

and floating

on the edges of everything

-Sarah Mahina Calvello

~the Jade Green~

take me to where

the seaweed

meets the water

in a jade green

laugh

and a cry

that crash against each other

at the same time

were just waves

trying to find our destination

trying to fight against the jagged

and torn

edges of sea foam

I surrender

who I’ve been

for who I want to be be now

just to think

I used to be alive

why did I feel

I had to hide it away

why did I make excuses

of a weak-hearted cry

when I close my eyes

maybe someday I’ll understand why

why I set myself aside

from the laughter

now my eyes are too tired

of being weighted down

by the sea

of my own making

pulled away

by the riptide

fingers crazy

and grabbing sand

its all about which

illusion I chose

I see that now

like a storm you can’t predict,

I’m in my chaotic form

watching the sky

darken and lay form

to each rolling wave

colors

of the sunset

reflect like broken glass

on the wet sand

-Sarah Mahina Calvello~

~Cafe~

Cafe

thing’s don’t seem as bleak

with a cup of coffee

the paper cup

just slightly bent

look inside

charcoal tears

curl up and stain

the air

it’s where my demons hide

and fade out

just for a minute

forget about the mess you made

don’t get too close

it’s woven into my soul

I need to show you the truth

look into my eye

searching for sweet  surrender

going through the motions

the lazy steam

violet silhouettes

haunting the cup

she holds in her hands

light blue sunglasses

lay beside the white sugar

on the brown table

all my words

burn so bright

day’s

too slow and fast

~Wing's~

~Wings~

that night

I found

your discarded and forgotten

wings

golden and green

the hopeful arch

of what was

now crumpled

and drunken

glitter

that now glitters

for no one

a tear

in the netting

faded

fake jewels

tarnished and faded

thrown

to the sidewalk

with hushed whispers

hidden

by purple shadows

a crumpled mosaic

in the brilliant cold

you can almost hear

the promise

of musical laughter

fading

and weaving

as the night darkens

  -Sarah Mahina Calvello-